I'm flying away today, not too far off, but it feels like the journey home after a long winter in the wild.. Maybe that's a little dramatic, but it feels good to be moving..
I can imagine myself traveling a lot easier now.. Let's see where this leads... I can feel the desire for adventure rising inside me...gotta let it out!!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Cure for the Itch?
It has been a while since i last posted, in my life it feels like an eternity!
I'm more restless now than i was before, hard to believe it.. i think I'm trying to do too much at once, but that's how i have always been! biting off more than i can chew so i can create something challenging for myself. Recently i have been having thoughts about adventure and the unknown...it doesnt have to be space or even Alaska, just somewhere intriguing and new to my eyes..anywhere! The urge to pack a bag and travel has become so strong it's almost a physical pain! I've done it before, so many times, just left with no real direction or aim, just wandering until i find a happy place...so why not now? Responsibility. Unfortunately, i think I'm growing up, i don't think i'll ever really get old, but i have started to pay more attention to the direction my life is going, instead of free falling and going with the flow (which i love doing). I want to see Greece, Spain, Thailand, Japan and explore islands in the Caribbean. but i have work on Monday so, no. LAME.
I'm not sure why, but i have a strong feeling I'm supposed to be getting in touch with old friends, not trying to sound all freaky-zodiac-psychic but it's just a feeling...Sometimes, by throwing caution to the wind we can find out a lot more than we expected to...
Well, I'm hitting the big 21 in a few weeks, hard to believe i was 18, like, yesterday! Never thought I'd make it this far...*chuckle
I'm in Cape Town for my actual birthday, which will be AWESOME, Johannesburg has a gritty, dirty, depressing quality about it that suffocates me from time to time, I'm definitely a coastal kid..water baby and whatnot!
One thing, no matter how caught up i get in the madness and chaos that seems to surround me constantly, i will keep my head above water..i have to! no safety nets, no stunt doubles..it's all me out here..with the howling wind and jagged skyline. Jeesh, do i need a holiday!!!
On the brighter side, i guess all the crap i go through is character building, if it wasn't for the hardships in life we would never appreciate the good times, and i can figuratively feel the good times coming on... So i thank the world for awesome people, true friends, great music and blueberry muffins! where would i be without you?!
I'm more restless now than i was before, hard to believe it.. i think I'm trying to do too much at once, but that's how i have always been! biting off more than i can chew so i can create something challenging for myself. Recently i have been having thoughts about adventure and the unknown...it doesnt have to be space or even Alaska, just somewhere intriguing and new to my eyes..anywhere! The urge to pack a bag and travel has become so strong it's almost a physical pain! I've done it before, so many times, just left with no real direction or aim, just wandering until i find a happy place...so why not now? Responsibility. Unfortunately, i think I'm growing up, i don't think i'll ever really get old, but i have started to pay more attention to the direction my life is going, instead of free falling and going with the flow (which i love doing). I want to see Greece, Spain, Thailand, Japan and explore islands in the Caribbean. but i have work on Monday so, no. LAME.
I'm not sure why, but i have a strong feeling I'm supposed to be getting in touch with old friends, not trying to sound all freaky-zodiac-psychic but it's just a feeling...Sometimes, by throwing caution to the wind we can find out a lot more than we expected to...
Well, I'm hitting the big 21 in a few weeks, hard to believe i was 18, like, yesterday! Never thought I'd make it this far...*chuckle
I'm in Cape Town for my actual birthday, which will be AWESOME, Johannesburg has a gritty, dirty, depressing quality about it that suffocates me from time to time, I'm definitely a coastal kid..water baby and whatnot!
One thing, no matter how caught up i get in the madness and chaos that seems to surround me constantly, i will keep my head above water..i have to! no safety nets, no stunt doubles..it's all me out here..with the howling wind and jagged skyline. Jeesh, do i need a holiday!!!
On the brighter side, i guess all the crap i go through is character building, if it wasn't for the hardships in life we would never appreciate the good times, and i can figuratively feel the good times coming on... So i thank the world for awesome people, true friends, great music and blueberry muffins! where would i be without you?!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
eye of the storm
The past month of my life seems to have rushed past in a hazy, shimmering blur.
I cant seem plant my feet firmly anywhere! Am i destined to just wander around? aimlessly covering miles in my minds eye...
I thought the move would benefit me emotionally, financially and so on.. I seem to have stumbled into a nest of stress, sleepless nights and overall unhappiness.
This is so NOT me!!
I have misplaced my passions, lost sight of sense, corrupted my own innocence while chasing an others dream. Where is my self these days??
The skies promised change today... think it's time to do something a little crazy.. I'm starting to feel like i might be growing up, but if it's going to be like this...I'll sacrifice maturity for some happiness..
I cant seem plant my feet firmly anywhere! Am i destined to just wander around? aimlessly covering miles in my minds eye...
I thought the move would benefit me emotionally, financially and so on.. I seem to have stumbled into a nest of stress, sleepless nights and overall unhappiness.
This is so NOT me!!
I have misplaced my passions, lost sight of sense, corrupted my own innocence while chasing an others dream. Where is my self these days??
The skies promised change today... think it's time to do something a little crazy.. I'm starting to feel like i might be growing up, but if it's going to be like this...I'll sacrifice maturity for some happiness..
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
In this house where I paint my mind,
My colors are emotions,
My canvas the sky.
In my perfect paradise, I've painted every night,
I look to find myself inside
But i don't recognize.
I'm survived by pieces..
I'm alive in moonlight,
I hope you're resting peacefully
My mind wanders restlessly
Say goodbye, Goodnight to everyone
Pack myself up and fly to the sun.
Wrap myself in silence
Wrap myself in rain
Wrap it up,
Pick it up, send it out again.
My colors are emotions,
My canvas the sky.
In my perfect paradise, I've painted every night,
I look to find myself inside
But i don't recognize.
I'm survived by pieces..
I'm alive in moonlight,
I hope you're resting peacefully
My mind wanders restlessly
Say goodbye, Goodnight to everyone
Pack myself up and fly to the sun.
Wrap myself in silence
Wrap myself in rain
Wrap it up,
Pick it up, send it out again.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Simplicity breeds Serenity?
Have you ever found that you have too many thoughts in your head?
all striving to get your undivided attention, your mind becoming a raucous mixing pot of noise and color?
I have.
Life Thru a Lens is my take on everyday happenings. the things that inspire, the things that intrigue.. the lesser acknowledged things too..
from an inspiring sunset to the smell of freshly cut grass after a storm..all things, big and small effect us. Sadly as the days blend together we fall into despair, fear grips us easily, exhaustion hugs our minds like creepers clinging the walls. Each and every day deserves praise for its beauty..a summer day is equal in its own way to a morning veiled in snow.
There's so much more to life than what we already take for granted.
as an aspiring photographer, i see things in a number of ways before i settle on the angle that pleases me most. we all do this in our own ways i guess, in everyday life we judge, interpret and create meaning for countless instances and images. A lonely woman shedding a tear can be,in an instant, the most beautiful thing one person has seen, while for the next-it may create other emotional feelings, like sadness or loneliness. everyone is different, and it's our differences that make us unique while bringing us together.
Me, i find beauty in simplicity..and find peace in that.
so here's an idea, take the time (any time) to pay attention to something you have learned to overlook. whether it's a moment of complete and comfortable silence, the sound of a storm or the fresh morning air, while the world still sleeps. I dare you to find something beautiful and magical in something different.
kids are watching ants while adults are stepping on them. some things just shouldn't be forgotten.
all striving to get your undivided attention, your mind becoming a raucous mixing pot of noise and color?
I have.
Life Thru a Lens is my take on everyday happenings. the things that inspire, the things that intrigue.. the lesser acknowledged things too..
from an inspiring sunset to the smell of freshly cut grass after a storm..all things, big and small effect us. Sadly as the days blend together we fall into despair, fear grips us easily, exhaustion hugs our minds like creepers clinging the walls. Each and every day deserves praise for its beauty..a summer day is equal in its own way to a morning veiled in snow.
There's so much more to life than what we already take for granted.
as an aspiring photographer, i see things in a number of ways before i settle on the angle that pleases me most. we all do this in our own ways i guess, in everyday life we judge, interpret and create meaning for countless instances and images. A lonely woman shedding a tear can be,in an instant, the most beautiful thing one person has seen, while for the next-it may create other emotional feelings, like sadness or loneliness. everyone is different, and it's our differences that make us unique while bringing us together.
Me, i find beauty in simplicity..and find peace in that.
so here's an idea, take the time (any time) to pay attention to something you have learned to overlook. whether it's a moment of complete and comfortable silence, the sound of a storm or the fresh morning air, while the world still sleeps. I dare you to find something beautiful and magical in something different.
kids are watching ants while adults are stepping on them. some things just shouldn't be forgotten.
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