Cure for the Itch?

It has been a while since i last posted, in my life it feels like an eternity!

I'm more restless now than i was before, hard to believe it.. i think I'm trying to do too much at once, but that's how i have always been! biting off more than i can chew so i can create something challenging for myself. Recently i have been having thoughts about adventure and the unknown...it doesnt have to be space or even Alaska, just somewhere intriguing and new to my eyes..anywhere! The urge to pack a bag and travel has become so strong it's almost a physical pain! I've done it before, so many times, just left with no real direction or aim, just wandering until i find a happy place...so why not now? Responsibility. Unfortunately, i think I'm growing up, i don't think i'll ever really get old, but i have started to pay more attention to the direction my life is going, instead of free falling and going with the flow (which i love doing). I want to see Greece, Spain, Thailand, Japan and explore islands in the Caribbean. but i have work on Monday so, no. LAME.
I'm not sure why, but i have a strong feeling I'm supposed to be getting in touch with old friends, not trying to sound all freaky-zodiac-psychic but it's just a feeling...Sometimes, by throwing caution to the wind we can find out a lot more than we expected to...
Well, I'm hitting the big 21 in a few weeks, hard to believe i was 18, like, yesterday! Never thought I'd make it this far...*chuckle
I'm in Cape Town for my actual birthday, which will be AWESOME, Johannesburg has a gritty, dirty, depressing quality about it that suffocates me from time to time, I'm definitely a coastal kid..water baby and whatnot!
One thing, no matter how caught up i get in the madness and chaos that seems to surround me constantly, i will keep my head above water..i have to! no safety nets, no stunt doubles..it's all me out here..with the howling wind and jagged skyline. Jeesh, do i need a holiday!!!

On the brighter side, i guess all the crap i go through is character building, if it wasn't for the hardships in life we would never appreciate the good times, and i can figuratively feel the good times coming on... So i thank the world for awesome people, true friends, great music and blueberry muffins! where would i be without you?!